dot.dot hahahaHA

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 18:49:18 GMT

little arrogant
thinks she's so great
know it all
know nothing at all
selfish
head in the clouds
lives in a bubble
backstabbing
two-timing
no other word for it
bitch

What do i hate the most? Liars.
I've been hurt too many times, by too many different people, and you'd think that I'd learn something.
The theory that people have... more like the stereotype, that quiet people are the nicest, or that those who have been treated badly, will never treat others the same. It's just a load of bullshit.
Who can blame me for not being more trusting - for not being more open. It's as if as soon as I start believing in someone, they just turn around and prove me wrong. Why am I always wrong.
After all this experience, I still can't tell how a person really is. It's too hard.
Things are always changing.

Twenty five. Twenty two. Eighteen. Sixteen. Age really is a just a number.

CHILDRENOF90s

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 12:11:31 GMT

gosh
i realied how old i actually am
when i went to see a movie in the day time
and everyone was younger than me =\

You're a 90's kid if:

You remember watching Doug, Ren & Stimpy, Pinky and the Brain , and Two Stupid Dogs.

AAAAAAAH real monsters.

You've never ended a sentence with the word "Sike!"

You just cant resist finishing this... "Iiiiiiin west philladelphia born and raised..."

You remember TGIF on ABC. Step by Step, Family Matters, Dinosaurs, and Boy Meets World

You remember when 2Pac and Selena died.

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.

You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school. You were the coolest kid ever if you could beat it in one computer class.

You remember reading "Goosebumps"

You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.

You remember the craze, then the banning of slap bracelets and slam books.

You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence.

You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record "Your FAVORITE song of ALL time".

"Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?" was both a game and a TV game show.

Captain Planet. He's a Hero.

You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green Ranger were meant to be together.

You remember when super nintendo's and Sega Genisis became popular.

You used to play Sonic the Hedgehog

You always wanted to send in a tape to America's Funniest Home Videos... but never taped anything funny.

You remember watching home alone 1, 2 , (and maybe even 3)... and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders"

You remember watching The Magic School Bus, Wishbone, and Reading Rainbow on PBS.

You remember when Yomega Yo-Yos were cool.

You remember those Where's ~~Waldo~~ Wally books.

You remember when Mortal Kombat Was "Da Bomb"!

U remember eating Warheads sour candys

You remember watching the 1st Batman, Aladdin, Ninja Turtles, and 3 Ninjas movies

You remember Ring Pops.

You remember drinkin' Fruitopia and Surge.

You BEGGED your parents to get you "the Grape Escape" game

If you remember when every thing was "da BOMB"

When they made the new lunchables so that you could make tacos and pizza!!

You remember boom boxes vs. cd players

Writing M.A.S.H. notes.

Mousetrap was the coolest game EVER!

Making those little chatterbox game things... and then predicting your life with them.

You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell"

You played and/or collected ~~"Pogs"~~ Tazo

You haven't always had a computer, and it was cool to have the internet. And Windows 95 was the best.

You watched the original cartoons of Rugrats, Power Rangers, and Ninja Turtles

You had a favorite New Kid on the block, and you knew all of there names

Michael Jordan was a king.

Or you called out "Jordan" when you pretended to "dunk it"

Yikes pencils and erasers were the stuff!

All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.

You remember when the new Beanie Babies and talking Elmo were always sold out.

You collected those Beanie Babies.

Growing Pains.

Carebears and The Gummy Bear show.

Gak was the coolest thing invented.

Lambchop's song never ended.

The old dollar bills.

Silver dollars, were cool to have.

You remember a time before the WB.

You collected all the Troll dolls.

You owned a portable tape player.

You know what an original walkman is.

You remember wanting to sit on the orange Nickelodeon couch.

You owned a trapperkeeper

You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"

You know the Macarena by heart.

"Talk to the hand"

You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"

You know the significance of the number 23.

You went to McD's to play in the playplace.

You remember playing on merry go rounds and see-saws at the playground.

&&When we were younger:

Before the MySpace frenzy

Before the Internet & text messaging

Before Sidekicks & iPods

Before mobile phones

Before MIKE JONES

Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX

Before Sponge Bob

Back when you put off the 5 hours of homework you had every night.

When light up sneakers were cool.

When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.

When gas was $0.95 a ~~gallon~~ litre & Caller ID was a new thing.

When we recorded stuff on VCRs .

When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.

When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.

When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.

when it was all about Nintendo 64.

WHEN YOU TRADED POKEMON CARDS FOR A LIVING

Before we realized all this would eventually disappear

Who would have thought you'd miss the 90's so much?

purikura of perfekshun?

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 12:39:03 GMT

miyavi is my birth twin.

drink the poison

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 13:59:13 GMT

sometimes your cant make it

on your own

haneul.

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 15:59:45 GMT

i find it hard to sleep in the night time.
ha.
my eyebags and dark cricles can form their own fanbase

library today, because i know i get disracted
following lovely example of a studious... student
did all my math hw which took me 3hours
straight
so proud, yet frustrated
spent aaagesss on a couple of questions which i didnt even work out in the end
what a waste of time

suss looking white guy kept asking me if i need a tutor
hi, are you looking for a tutor?
not really
oh, ok. well here's my card if you change your mind
ok

5minutes later...
sure youre not interested
nah, sorry
ok then
*nod*nod*
sure?
yes

5minutes later...
that question looks hard
oh, haha. yeah.
need some help?
no im ok
sure? its for free, haha
umm its ok

5minutes later...
figure out that question yet?
ehh... no.
do you want me to help you?
uhh, no, i'll just ask my teacher tomorrow
sure?
*GLARE*
...

so fcking annoying.

got home at around... 8? perhaps.
did a good deed
had an orange for dinner
followed by an orange juice for dessert
[mental note: must buy real food]
decided to take a little nap
then do english stuffs
BAD BAD BAD

i just woke up now
she's gonna go and try to attempt some annotations now
0233hours.

I should do some learning

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 14:43:54 GMT

if where she sits is warm, then she will sleep on the train, bus, taxi, airplane. anything you can ride, she'll sleep in. if i call her, she will wake up to pick up the phone, but when i work, she will sleep. when she sleeps on the bus, she will slip off the seats and fall. as i watch her, i let her sleep on my knees. but the chair is small, so i have to sit far off to the side. as the time passes, i get pushed off to the side more and more. and then soon, with her on head on my knees, i sit on one butt-cheek and the other passengers who pass-by are affected. my leg begins to get numb and i wake her up. she asks if we're almost here, i tell her to stop snoring.

i
have
to
stop
my
self
...
again.

stop it.
just stop.
stop being gorgeous.
and leave me here
to wallow
in my pain
why
do you have to be
so nice;
for?
stop
making me
happy
it doesnt fit
my profile
no
dont LOL me
oh great
now
youre making me laugh
again
i
so
cant
fall for this
for...
him?
you?
this is so wrong
but if its wrong
i guess thats why i like
it.this.him.

dsps.hide.hide.hide your face

Sat, 24 Mar 2007 09:17:08 GMT

i do not wish to be given a name for what i have.
what i have is my personality, its just who i am, and how i was "made"
we're given pills, therapy. we're reconditioned until we fit into the profile we're meant to have
we completely respect who you are but only if who you are is who we want you to be
why is being attention deficit a disorder?
why do schizophrenics need fixing?
why does gender identity confusion require treatment?
youd think after so many tragedies, after so many mistakes
that eventually we'll learn
after a 13 year old jumps out of her apartment because people at school are mean
youd think itd stop
after a musician stabs himself in the chest, not once, but twice
youd think we'd stop scrutinising over their every move
after a man with a birth defect sleeps face down and suffocates
youd think we'd stop with the comments
when an 18 year old pop star slashes her wrists, attempts to gas herself, and then evidently jumps off the roof of her record company building
youd think that maybe we'd get over the 'teen popstar perfection' expectation

where did all these rules come from
but then again
rules are meant to be broken

All the world's a stage
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms;
And then the whining school-boy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honor, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lin'd,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slipper'd pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side,
His youthful hose, well sav'd, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion;
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.

what a beautiful tragedy when a man outcasted by society's typical views
tied a bathtowl around his neck, and hung himself from a doorknob
the terminally ill girl he was best friends with
outlived him

yubikiri; love to the girl in the snow

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 11:57:49 GMT

if i were to get a pro-looking [d]slr camera
first thing i would do is take hundreds of photos of random people on the street
just because ive always wanted to

this is a promise to myself.

and then we...

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 08:53:34 GMT

who remembers?

one day you will be nostalgic for now...

yesterday i decided to be a good little student and went to library and did my math homework
trying to free up as much time as i can so i can focus on chem and engrish this weekend
(as well as celebrate a birth)
finished all my math, very proudly
and decided to move on and do story stuff for eng.
read superly long and confusing text, and the fact that a pack of islanders walked in
didnt help at all
considered 'shushing' them but wasnt particularly in the mood for a beating/verbal abuse session
yeah, i may be generalising; but this is one of the things where you say
better be safe than sorry, i suppose
amongst the really tall and butch guys was one sick (as in, ill) looking asian who looked oddly familiar
i guess reality sorta punched me in the face when he said
"oh, hey"

my fault entirely. if i hadnt been freakishly staring, trying to figure out who he was, he probably wouldnt have recognised/noticed me
i knew him once upon a time, when he wasnt so skinny/sick looking
when he had black hair, not blonde
and when his ears werent clogged with metal
once upon a time when i was only 14, and thought things like jonny ngo were the coolest thing like, ever, G.
haha, yes. back in the day when i said things like
"hey, whaddup, G" or "that's rad"
my memory tells me that i was honestly just being ironic, or funny
but somehow i think even memories lie for my own benefit

last time i saw this boy, it wasnt a pleasant farewell. it was more like a
"go die, or move away. or i hope i go blind so i dont have to see you again"
funny thing that - he actually did move away, but for other reasons not worth mentioning

usually when you see someone you really hated, and still hate, but just not so pasionately anymore - you avoid them, and pretend you dont know eachother. this is typically how i deal with my "situations"

but when that person says 'hi' to you in a really friendly manner
what do you do?

me says: oh, hey
he says: how have you been?
me says: good
he says: sorry didnt tell you i came back
me says: its okay. my bus is coming soon. bye.

and so i left the library as gracefully as i could, and seriously, my bus really was about to come, but also because i knew what he would say next, and if i heard this...
years of repression would cease to exist, and itd be like it just happened - again

i dont even think i had a real reason for hating him. i think i just wanted him gone. everything from that year, so long ago, i just wanted gone
and i got what i wanted, until now

ive never said this, and i dont even think im really saying it now
but ive done many things in my life that most people would consider to be bad
no other word
just bad
thankfully i have a really generic name, and i wasnt an idiot who went around publicising what school i went to
i havent changed that much, in terms of facial features, but i rarely get recognised now-a-days probably because my outside image has changed, and im not the person i used to be
im smart enough to know when to avoid certain types of people who would have likely heard something about me. but it doesnt really matter now, anyway, because ive turned into a character, and the stories have mostly turned into fiction

everyone has heard, at least once, a story that began with;
"you know, i heard there was this girl..."
guess what
most of the time, that girl is me
was me
i grew up/grew out (of it)

growing up isnt so bad
but the thing is, when you grow up, even a little, you start to hate the people who still remain the same
not because theyre immature, but because you long to have those days of innocense back, because truly;
it really is bliss.

id rather not know how cruel the world can be

time to crack it down

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 11:32:05 GMT

promised myself that id make a huge effort this year to keep up with all my work
and not fall behind
the past few days ive been slacking off
so tonight
im finishing off all my work, no matter what

... i guess its no sleep for me tonight

even though i know... wakattemo

Tue, 20 Mar 2007 12:34:39 GMT

at the moment im compiling a list of songs that make me sad
my list has 8 songs

its weird how people voluntarily do things to make themselves upset
like watching a movie you know has a sad ending
to making a list of songs that make you cry
human emotion is strange and unpredictable

who can blame me
i just wanted everything to go so perfectly
and when it didnt, it brought out the worst in me
i realised, today, how easy it is for me to be something im not
yowasa wo kakushita mama, egao wo tsukuru no wa yameyou

i have to be the image of perfection
to make up for the fact im so much less than that
its something everyone says doesnt matter
but secretly, it does
youre just not allowed to say it out loud
kazaritsukenaide kono mama no watashi de ikite yuku tame nani ga hitsuyou

NYE ... resolutions

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 14:30:17 GMT

so a few people were online
and i just felt like asking...

. you cant be mi: hey, whats your new years resolution?

(12:07 AM) - [»] °: ummm , to get off msn .

(12:08 AM) - helen ♥: to marry booey

(12:08 AM) - сняіѕѕ: to keep in touch with everyone

(12:08 AM) .ShoOshAn..s2: omg havent thught of that

(12:08 AM) [blackout] there: i duno

(12:09 AM) 『HungDONG: dont have one

(12:09 AM) `bille. // you w: 1. Stop overyhping stuff I recommend so when people see it they're not that disappointed. (okay thats way too specific, applies to things like moies, bands, places, etc.)
2. Be a lot tidier.
(12:09 AM) `bille. // you w: And 3, and this is the main one, *Be punctual.

(12:09 AM) . »мarк: well 1 to become much wiser/ smart 2 become less controlled by my emotions 3 stop following trends 4 become less worried about the future 5 become more fit and 6 stop havin so many new yr resolutions

(12:09 AM) » psyanide. || -: dunno yet

(12:09 AM) bRIAN.: start studying
(12:09 AM) bRIAN.: and keep my room clean
(12:09 AM) bRIAN.: and keep fit

(12:09 AM) ______578498573: less skittles kekekkee

(12:09 AM) ×___ѕ т з ғ - е: study hard
(12:09 AM) ×___ѕ т з ғ - е: lyk my ass off
(12:09 AM) ×___ѕ т з ғ - е: get fitter
(12:09 AM) ×___ѕ т з ғ - е: no procrastinating
(12:10 AM) ×___ѕ т з ғ - е: b a stronger person

(12:10 AM) prehistoric: to finish off the book i'm reading
(12:10 AM) prehistoric: In Lucia's Eyes

(12:10 AM) Steven.: hey haha thanks for reminding me
(12:15 AM) Steven.: remember things!
(12:15 AM) Steven.: um i guess keep working on music
(12:15 AM) Steven.: um
(12:16 AM) Steven.: maybe get a job

(12:18 AM) popTART free f: be nicer to liz [=

(12:23 AM) [εтзиаl▪мєlоdу: it would be to get a job or something and possibly a gf as well

(12:23 AM) jaeson: 2 save sum kittens.
(12:23 AM) jaeson: maybe sum whales 2
(12:24 AM) jaeson: not badgers tho
(12:24 AM) jaeson: h8 them

(12:27 AM) go JB!-RIP....th: hmmmmmm

(12:27 AM) -TeA- | Renk: haven't though about it

(12:28 AM) Lawson: To:
study harder, lose 7kg, get to grade five in violin,

(12:28 AM) [sometimes i h: eat less. play more

(12:28 AM) [ вlacκ мoиκey: study my ass off
(12:28 AM) [ вlacκ мoиκey: get fitt
(12:28 AM) [ вlacκ мoиκey: umm
(12:28 AM) [ вlacκ мoиκey: become a better friend
(12:28 AM) [ вlacκ мoиκey: gain more weight
(12:28 AM) [ вlacκ мoиκey: and alst but not elast
(12:29 AM) [ вlacκ мoиκey: i'd like it very much to get banged
(12:29 AM) [ вlacκ мoиκey: =]

(12:34 AM) 黄庆辉: ....be happy??

(12:57 AM) [»lαv℮иđ℮я»] [Do: i dont know

(1:18 AM) HENRY : probly to crack down at school and work seriosuly you know

what about you?
Booey's
be honest
value friendships
work hard
play less
"get banged"

WHATS YOURS?
cmnt here with your new years resolution

buzz

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 12:31:51 GMT

join buzznet:
http://buzznet.com/www/subscribe/?friend=booey

my buzz: clickz

loves yoshika

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 06:15:19 GMT

how things stand, i couldnt just forget you
i cant just shut you away
while i know that we couldnt let it get any deeper
no matter what, i've got to let you know how i feel
especially when i'm giving it all i've got
i want your heart; boy,
even if its just for one moment

im still drowning in this
it that cannot be
i dont want to wake from this dream
cant let go
its selfish, but i don't care
i want you
unwavering
right here

it all started off with
"hey how you doing?"
a love story wound open as we met eye to eye
And now, im left wondering
"do love and loss come as a set?"
time stands still, even though I left you

i make myself believe that im alright
though it hurts for you not to be by my side
just wondering if you feel the same
i wanna see if this is for real

idling away your life doesnt make you nobody
so dont be afraid, loosen up your reins
if you wanna be free, let go
im telling you
EGO is terrorism of the heart

so, just listen
though sweet and silent time passes by
my body -
its breaking apart
boy; why does it have to be like this?

im envoloped by dark anxiety
i feel like im going to break
oh why do i try to monopolise this?
all without saying a thing
all i want is for you to be right here

i lept aboard just as the trains doors began to shut
a girl who doesnt like to wait
speeding towards the reality we now face
the hands on my watch dont stop
the magic that only works once, the key to destiny
how suddenly things changed, it ridicules logic
dont hurry and he might stay
rewind, fade, the memory returns

tell me how to be free
will my i be free?
so tell me even for just a moment

ew i hate this

Tue, 31 Oct 2006 13:19:50 GMT

what the hell is up with livejournal?
i used to like this.

looking at the features of a paid livejournal account,
ive realised
that GREATESTJOURNAL has all those features for free

i think everyone should get a greatestjournal
i am chemical_vomit@GJ

i dont know... im trying to make an effort and post in here too
but the uglyness of LJ is a turnoff
that stupid navigation barr is annoying

Olda.

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 05:50:04 GMT

Just in case you havent gotten the memo
this journal is dead.

Please visit this website for my active blog.

>> im back... maybe... if you care ^o^

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 16:02:59 GMT

c'est très---.